So I have missed a few days since the last time I wrote a blog. Some things came up that had my nerves shot. But I am now doing ok. Well as close to ok as possible. Been trying to hit the gym more so that I can get my mind off of the things going on in my life so far and doing some adoption research as well online. I am trying to keep my spirits up though and trying to look at the brighter side of things. Not an easy task if I may say, but a task that I need to keep doing; prevents me from going stir crazy I guess (laughing).
So things haven't really changed at all since I last posted. Only thing that changed was my waist size. I got all the clothes that don't fit me any more and put them in a bag to be donated to the homeless shelters. I am happy about that though, I can honestly say.
This relationship has taken a toll on me so far and I am doing my best to try to fix it, but at the same time...why fix something that keeps breaking and losing pieces each time it breaks? Pretty soon there will be no pieces left to put together to make it whole or as close to whole as it once was. I am even ashamed to say that I went furniture window shopping a few times just to see what it would cost me to furnish a place of my own. I was shocked to find out that it would cost me less then $2k to do so, but that just the bedroom, dinning room and living room. That is not including the kitchen or the bathroom. So with that said and done I am going to try to put some money to the side and save here and there till I can get close enough to the $2k not to mention the rent on places which I haven't yet gone to check out what some places are going for.
Right now I don't really even know what to write anymore until the day things change for the better. So until then I just going to write when I can and go from there.
Sincerely,
Mister M
