Lost Gay Love Part 3

So its come to my attention that I forgot to add 2 more items to my first Lost Gay Love Part 1.  In part 1 I discuss about the Physically, Emotionally and Mentally showing support to your partner, boyfriend, girlfriend, significant other, etc.  The other two point that I did not mention are called Sexually and Romantically.  I know this may sound crazy but I came up with the abbreviation S.P.E.R.M..  Which I think is the perfect abbreviation after thinking about it.  It is the main building block in the start of a new life.  And just like S.P.E.R.M., theses are the building block on a relationship.

Yesterday I took another page out of the movie Why Did I Get Married Too; now please take into consideration I am not promoting this movie for any benefits, its just a good movie to make one think; I told my partner how I felt and how he had made me feel recently for a while now.  Now I couldn't read any facial expression from his face as he told me a few reason that I may feel the way that I am feeling. Which in-turn I advised him that the way things going are my fault. He then stated in-turn that it was not, but again no facial expression or S.P.E.R.M. at all was shown.  This has made me think even further more into myself.  If this is how it is now, what will it be like when I want to adopt a child or children? Now don't get me started on the fact that I once asked him what he felt about the topic of gay marriage.  His response is that it was not needed and all that it is was a piece of paper.  Now this was sometime ago when he had advised me on what he believed. But in my own mind in heart I still wonder if that is how he still is or is he a changed man due to all the publicity on gay marriage?  This month I plan on checking out some adoption material and agencies and see what his expressions are again on this matter and bring up the marriage at a later time.  As I do believe in marriage and I do want to have children.

 

 

Sincerely,

Mister M